Iskul bukol
I have my last interview for my summer internship on Wednesday the 23rd. The interview is with a foundation located in the West Loop of Chicago. I have to do better this time because I just got an e-mail from Louis, the director of the Philanthropy and Non-Profit Management program, and he told me one of my interviewers said I didn't seem to know much about the foundation. Shiyeeeeeeeeeeeeet. Nakakahiya.I suspect my interviewer at this foundation focusing on women's issues said that, especially since I did admit that I didn't know much about what they did. Gawd. I know I didn't get to do much research and I was pretty tired, since I had just arrived from Michigan and I was sick besides. And I also thought it might make the interviewer feel more important if I downplayed what little I knew so she'd have more stuff to tell me. Or it might make me look like I was really eager to learn or open to new ideas and experiences. What the hell was I thinking? I am such an idiot.
Napa-praning tuloy ako. Langhya. I went for an interview with a foundation dealing with legal issues yesterday afternoon and that went all right--it lasted for about an hour. I printed something from the foundation's website and my interviewer saw me holding the printout, and he assumed I had done extensive research about the foundation. Ewan ko. Then again, I asked him a lot of questions, so maybe he interpreted it as ignorance on my part? WAAAAAH!!!!
Prior to my interview, my first choice was the foundation dealing with legal issues, my second choice was the foundation focusing on women's issues, and my third choice was with the community foundation I'll be interviewing for tomorrow. Right now, my first and second choices are reversed. I know I shouldn't close my doors because I haven't completed my interviews yet, but still...I dunno, that's where I stand at the moment. In terms of location, the women's foundation is the closest (about a half-hour commute by train) and the community foundation the farthest (I have to transfer to the green line from the Lake station, where I would incidentally get off if I were to work for the women's foundation. I also got off this station when I babysat for Gabriella, so before I walked into my interview, I couldn't help musing, "From DH (domestic helper) to intern. Wow, promoted ang beauty ko."
Shit. I'll be lucky if I get an internship placement at all. If not, I'll just have to go back to babysitting on the side. Waaaaah.
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On a more positive note, I got back my homework for my Assessment workshop and it turns out I did better than expected. I actually got As for all three assignments. Woo-hoo! And I didn't even get penalized for handing in one assignment a day late.
I could have attended the last class without getting into trouble, after all, because some of my classmates didn't have their homework done, either. One of them just turned in the second assignment today, and that was due two weeks ago! Shoot. The moral of the story: no matter how screwed you think you are, go to class.
So my Assessment workshop is over and done with. My professor told us not too put too much effort into our projects because it's just a one-credit workshop after all. I wish she had said that earlier, don't you? But that's okay.
I have one more workshop to do--Designing a Syllabus, it's called--and I'm done with the Community College Learning and Teaching Certificate program. I wonder if it will open doors for me in the States, or if I can use it wherever I go. I just found out from my classmates ("colleagues," if you will) that they need 15 credit hours to get tenure, and the certificate only gives them 9 credit hours. So they need to take two more classes to get tenure.
On a sad note, the program is folding up. My instructor just announced that this afternoon. She said the grant used to fund the program is running out, and Loyola refused to take it on, administratively. Jennifer, the co-director of the program, will also be moving to take on an administrative position at Loyola's Office of Mission and Ministry. All this administrative crap is making my head spin. So after the third cohort (the batch after me), the program is a done deal. What a shame because from what I've heard, other people who teach in community colleges are interested in taking it.
I know I ranted about how part of me feels the program was a ripoff, but I still feel sad.
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I saw The Girl again this afternoon (I'll just call her that for now so I won't incriminate myself). Being the denial queen that I am (read: I usually don't own up to my attraction to other people till I'm in too deep or after the fact), I can't say I have a crush on her. Funny, I always bump into her at the most random times. I also bump into her during the most "wa-poise" moments of my life. I don't know if I'm attracted to her or if she's attracted to me, but whenever we talk, the chemistry is there. It's undeniable. Whenever we talk, it's as if both of us are reluctant to part ways but we both have to get on with our next thing.
Am I falling in love????
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I want to tell myself things will work out, somehow, as far as my studies are concerned. Haaayyy...I guess I'll just take my last interview as a chance to redeem myself.
Okay, gotta go. It's Friday night, and being the big nerd that I am, I'm at the computer lab. I gotta do some errands and just relax at home. Hopefully, I can hook up with Her, despite our busy schedules.
found herself @ 6:50 PM
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