Sexy, Innocent Child-Woman

I was supposed to write about the turn of events in my life over the past couple of days, but my head hurts from staring at the computer for so long. I'm also brain-dead because Johnna and I (and her crush M) went drinking last night, and I had to wake up early to babysit. My shift was cut short by 2 hours because the kid's dad came home early, but I'm still sleep-deprived and I'm not making any sense. So I'll just write something more coherent next time.

On our way home from the bar last night, Johnna and I ended up talking about my failed relationship with R. I realized then that there's a part of me that's still hurting, even if I know I wasn't in the wrong. I guess a part of me died with the friendship that died the day he decided to cut me out of his life. And I haven't grieved over the failed relationship, completely.

I checked my e-mail and found one of his e-mails around the time we were dating. I cringed when I read the words "Love you po"--words he told me, and words I told him. (Yuck, baduy). So I deleted the e-mail in a heartbeat. I would have deleted all his other e-mails pero di ko kayang tingnan.

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I came across the lyrics of the song "Both Sides Now," which I can really relate to at the moment because of everything I'm going through. I guess I'll end with that.