Sexy, Innocent Child-Woman

Another song that speaks to my heart

YAY! After 48 years of trying to get the lyrics of this song and figure out who the heck sang it, I just got the answer to my question. Ah, the wonders of blog-hopping. =)

I've never blogged about this particular love interest before, although I've e-mailed/written a close friend or two about him. Maybe I'm afraid that seeing my thoughts and feelings in print would make the situation even more real. I wouldn't be surprised because I can be the biggest denial queen when I fall in love with someone, especially if that person happens to be a really close friend of mine. I even tend to rationalize my feelings, using such lines as: "Kapatid (ate/kuya, depending on the gender) ko lang yan," "Di ko siya crush. Emotional attraction/attachment lang 'yon," or even "May spiritual attraction lang ako." God. Ang labo noh? So now you know, if I ever throw around such statements, it's a big red flag--it means I'm head over heels in love with the person concerned.

I feel like the character of MJ in Spiderman. I've loved a very close friend of mine for the longest time, and before I admitted to myself I was in love with him, there were times when I sensed he had feelings for me, too. Our common friends picked up on the same vibe. But there's no way we could ever be in a relationship. You see, this guy is a seminarian, and he's happy there. I'd get struck by lightning if I act on my feelings. And he knows I've been in contact with nuns for the past four years. Actually, when I started getting "disturbed" by the thought of religious life, he was there for me and encouraged me to be open to that kind of life, despite all my issues. He once told me in jest, "'Wag kang mai-in love. Magma-madre ka." We're like the modern-day Brother Sun and Sister Moon, at malabo talagang maging kami. =(

found herself @ 9:24 PM