Mixed feelings
It's been five days since I got back, and I hit the ground running, as usual. In some ways, I feel like I never left, even if I was away for two months. I guess I've gotten used to living in two worlds. I can slip in and out of my Pinoy world and/or American world as needed. I enjoyed every minute of my stay in the Philippines, the disappointments I encountered notwithstanding. Now everything's becoming a blur...which I'm not too happy about. I want all the memories of my trip to burn in my soul. I have a lot of things to treasure and ponder in my heart (a la Mama Mary).I'm going through several transitions right now--new teaching assignments, new research fellowship, new roommate...the list goes on and on. God help me. It doesn't help that most of my close friends here haved moved away. I've made new friends, but my life in Chicago is kinda strange--and lonely--without the people I used to count on.
So my reentry this year is a mixed bag. I have a lot to be thankful for. My research fellowship is going well, and my supervisor likes my work thus far. Of course, having free tuition this year means a lot. And my teaching jobs aren't as demanding (hopefully) as my previous teaching loads. I'm also inspired to study hard nowadays because I got official approval to conduct my research in CIW--something I'd been praying so hard for.
But I'm also stressed out over several things at the moment. I'm having issues with my current roommate because:
- She's rather messy. She leaves her shoes in the kitchen, and her DVDs and bookbag on the dining table. She also leaves her electric fans and laptop on all the time, even when she's out (which is most of the time).
- Her boyfriend sleeps over sometimes. The other day, after I bumped into him in the kitchen at around 5AM, the dude had the nerve to inform me that he would be staying over twice a week, when he has early-morning classes, since the apartment is pretty close to campus. My roommate didn't even let me know what was going on. And take note: neither my roommate nor her boyfriend even cared to ask me if I'd mind such a setup. It's not like the dude doesn't have a freakin' UPass, so he can commute to campus for free. Had I known this would happen, I would have picked a different roommate or just moved to a studio.
- I just found out she took/used some of my stuff without my permission very recently. I heard her leave for a gimik with her friends last night. This morning, I found my beaded Mangyan bracelet and my comb lying around by the sink. I usually keep these in the cabinet in the bathroom. Wtf??? That's the last straw! I just left that biatch a note and I hope she gets my message.
To top it off, I'm missing someone terribly right now. I never thought our paths would cross, but thank God we're part of each other's lives. I never thought we'd become close, but thank God our friendship blossomed in such a short time. Now, we're worlds apart and even if we'll see each other in three months, it won't be long before we'll have to part ways again. All I can do is wait and trust that God will work wonders for us...
found herself @ 11:30 AM
10 Comments:
welcome back!
Diane, napaka-exciting talaga ng mga trips mo. I hope mas maging happy ang vacation mo sa December.
Take care!
Ayeza: Thank you! Musta ka na? Ayo-ayo dinha!
Doc Nikki: Thank you! Hehe, exciting ba ang trips ko? Wala naman akong masyadong ginawa n'ung umuwi ako, just the same stuff.
Teka, anong nangyari sa isa mo pang comment? Nabasa ko sa e-mail ko pero di naman lumabas dito sa blog ko. Hmmm...gusto mong sagutin ko pa rin dito? Basta, don't worry about not texting me before I left. Sorry rin, di ko masyadong ginagamit ang cellphone ko noon.
Miss you, as in! Oo nga, sabay tayo doon sa alam-mo-na. Hehe :) You take care too!
Welcome back Di!
Congrats on your research and getting an approval for CIW!
on your roommate, i guess you should talk to her! i had once like that and i was real mad when she used my things and worst ate my food. So better talk to that girl.
Mommy Lei: Thank you po!
About my research, I still have to get official approval from my school. Mas madugo ang proseso dito,as in. So please continue to pray for me. Thanks!
As for my roommate...hay naku, she still hasn't come home so as of now, nakabukas pa rin ang mga electric fan at ang laptop niya for two days now. I just left her a very long loveletter. I hope she doesn't throw a tantrum when she reads it this afternoon or tonight--that is, if she comes home. Or if she throws a tantrum, I hope she doesn't do anything crazy to my stuff. Hay...
Ingat po!
welcome back again and again hehe..
kaya mo ang research na yan....
ano na nangyari sa roommate mo? nabasa na ba niya ang loveletter mo hehehe
Kneeko: Thank you again and again, hehe :)
Sana nga kayanin ng powers ko ang research ko...pati 'yung ibang requirements na dapat kong tapusin bago ko simulan ang research ko.
Hay naku, di ko alam kung nabasa na ng roommate ko ang loveletter ko. Pag-uwi ko kagabi, the letter was on the same spot I left it in sa living room. Nilipat ko sa dining table ang sulat, baka sakaling di niya nakita sa sala. Pero pag-alis ko kanina, nasa table pa rin ang sulat, parang hindi man lang binuklat. Tsaka pasaway pa rin siya. Waaaah :(
Ingat na lang!
To top it off, I'm missing someone terribly right now. I never thought our paths would cross, but thank God we're part of each other's lives. I never thought we'd become close, but thank God our friendship blossomed in such a short time. Now, we're worlds apart and even if we'll see each other in three months, it won't be long before we'll have to part ways again. All I can do is wait and trust that God will work wonders for us... ---- oist, prettyful! are you inlababo? :p ---maks
Maks: Musta? Ngek, di ako inlababo. Attached lang siguro ako...friends lang kami, promise! At wholesome toh! (Here I go again, hehehe :))
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